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i promised erica that no emo post should ever be written on this page(unless i am undergoing severe pms). so i am back..trying to blog as soon as possible..cant promise daily(or even weekly) updates but i am sooooooo active on my tumblr. i swear i log on more than 5 times a day and can spend the whole night browsing through it like an addict. it’s so interesting, very pretty and different.

exam starts in less than a week. i have paper 3 of all science subjects next week and i am freaking out and screaming in my head. trying to cram as much experiments in my head and in between that, trying to revise and not fall asleep. stress! i am terrible at add maths. i really cannot do it. no matter how many exercises i do, how many of the formulas i memorize and how prepared i feel i am, when the question is in front of me, i blank out. and i make some of the dumbest, most careless mistakes ever. my workings are often everywhere, crossed out, and scribbled over. at this point, i cannot remember how to do logarithm, coordinate geometry, circles or statistics aka all the chapters after quadratic functions. i will die. i have to crash course my add maths in 10 days or i will die. i will die.

and no, i dont care abt my physics. i still dont get it + never will.

i am obsessed with diamonds. on wrists.

so yes, started my revision. started the stressing and worrying. will not be breathe easily until finals is over, and i get my paper back and then it’s bye bye malaysian education system. bye bye to sejarah and all those obscenely long arabian names, bye to the absolutely ridiculous, appallingly redundant and useless formats for pmoral, bm in general and lousy ict. (still cant believe i am leaving btw)

been doing some fun stuff in school to cool off the building stress over finals. like, havent sat in my designated place for more than 15 minutes. everyone’s kinda moving arnd, chairs everywhere, papers float arnd randomly and table are so haphazardly arranged that no one can walk arnd without turning or twisting their bodies. four, five, sometimes six, people crowded arnd a table. alot of chatting, listening too and talking abt ominous finals with our teachers. writing big big confessions and deep dark secrets, collecting photos, doodling caricatures and composing/copying poems for our time capsules. played with rabbits and mass ordered tehcpeng, fun. we ordered mcd yesterday.. more like i did and we printed our hand and footprints in paint for charity. we tried to dance to beyonce’s single ladies and we also have been migrating frequently to the unused, haunted block because it has practically the most cleanest and toilet-paper-abundant restrooms in the entire school. those 15yearolds are sitting for their pmr tomorrow. best of lucky, you lucky bastards. wish i could got back to last year.  everything was so much simpler and got scared over pmr for no big reason.

okay so, this is my none emo post. yay. gossip girl episode 3 out today. go dwld people. :)

will leave you with some pics of diamonds(because i will one day permanently print one on my wrist) and crazy friends and love and how it’s october again.

WTF IT’S OCTOBER AGAIN. :O :O